Bethlett .

65 . Hello my loves, it's been awhile hasn't it? Nothing exciting has been happening to be honest, I've just been quiet. You know by now I have these lulls from time to time. I realised the other day that ive been writing to you all for a whole year now!! Can you believe it? I can't! It's gone by so quickly, a little too quick. Can I reflect on the year please? Thank you I will... I started writing to you with the intention of over coming fears, creating a bucket list and ticking the list off as I defined the odds and smashed through my comfort zone. That was my intention. The reality is, my fears only grew and no list was created and nothing was ticked off. Instead writing to you became my platform to empty the mess inside of  my head and basically writing to you stopped me from becoming insane.  I think we all have moments where my minds become a little fuzzy, a little bit too much is happening to juggle. I've had many moments like that in this

64 . I guess we never really have a path in life, nothing is as easy as we want to be and sometimes not worth all the effort we put into it. Life is a complete mind fuck but it's bloody amazing.  We dream of big things, the dream house, the perfect wedding the perfect prince or princess but those pictures in our minds are fabricated and blown way way over the top. One day we realise that the little house we live in with the annoying person we share it with is our dream come true. That is our little bubble of 'perfect' because it's completely and utterly imperfect and we'd change so much but really deep down, we probably wouldn't change a thing.  Life is ultimately a mine field, we constantly tread carefully because we d on't want it to blow up. But life does blow up, we blow up. We need those explosive moments we avoid to happen so that we have something to learn from, something to pass on to others as words of advise; little tiny snippets of our

63 . Hello my loves, I started writing this post whilst on the bus and then on my break, there was no inspiration to it, it just sorted happened, I wrote it without thinking so it more than likely doesn't make any sense. But I hope you enjoy it, the randomness of it at least Over the past few days I've been talking to a lovely girl who I've kinda known since I was 16 yet never actually spoke too. We had quite a few mutual friends yet for some reason never hung out, I don't even think we've had a five minute conversation just smiles and hellos. It's crazy because she's such a lovely person so hopefully now we will meet properly sometime :)  The reason I'm telling you this is because it got me thinking about how  in life we build friendships, some have longevity and some don't but for how ever long that individual is apart of your life they can mean so much to you. They can help you through the toughest times and bring a freshness that maybe yo