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My New Venture

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Change is a wonderful thing, change is a time for learning and growth. Change is positive, time to move on, time for a new adventure...change terrifies me!!! 

This week I leave the job I have done for the last 4 and a half years. I leave the comfort of knowing what I do and that I do it well. I will put my uniform on for the last time before moving onto something new. A place with no uniform, a place where I'll know nothing, I'll know nobody. I'm starting a whole new chapter for my book which is my life. Am I ready? Not really, am I scared? You bet I am! Am I excited? ABSOLUTELY! The learning doesn't scare me, getting things a bit wrong doesn't scare me because that's to be expected. No way am I going into this knowing what I'll be doing. But I know that in time once a routine is together I'll be fine. 

You all know I'm about routine, I'm a creature of habit so what scares me is that for a while I'll not really have anything together. I'm going to be floating around a bit lost for a while. Until I'm nicely settled. 

I'm sad to be leaving friends who have supported me the last 4 years, they helped me through my saddest moments. I'm sad not to see the friendly customers who I've grown a connection with. Don't get me wrong I'm happy to be leaving the mean ones behind! But as this chapter ends I feel as though I'm disappearing from the world that I've known. The new world I'm entering will be new friends, new connections. New people are going to learn my quirks, my flaws. But those who will be my friends will accept me like my current ones have. 

It's going to be strange, it's going to be sad but deep down I feel like this will be the best opportunity I'm going to take, and I can't wait.

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Much love,
Beth xx

Email - bethsblog90@gmail.com 

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